Sylvester was looking through old photographs (hence the picture above) and realised that we’ve never had one taken of us, so our less serious but probably the most imposible seeming challenge this summer is to make one and keep it safe to give to Babi later on. It got me thinking about what else I want to give to and what aspirations i have for Babi, I wonder too how much parents aspirations change for their children over time.

Hoping for Babi to know choice and Jesus, as well as how to love others and give a lot and really smile. I need to be the best kind of role model. I want to teach Babi how to read and swim and ride a bike because I’m so lucky to have learnt all three. I dream that Babi will have a passion for learning through book and text whilst equally exploring the within and surrounding worlds of other people. We’ll do all we can to provide a safe place where Babi will know happiness, will be encouraged to carry self confidence and will be driven to take on any challenge. I hope that life will contain much more for Babi than possessing the material or the outward perception of a hollow success. I need to ensure as a mother that I do not allow my sight to become blinded or blinkered, but that the scales fall off and that my vision remains clear. You’re still so young and tiny but you make our hearts swell with love and hope for you, mostly just keep amazing us little person x

Sylvester was looking through old photographs (hence the picture above) and realised that we’ve never had one taken of us, so our less serious but probably the most imposible seeming challenge this summer is to make one and keep it safe to give to Babi later on. It got me thinking about what else I want to give to and what aspirations i have for Babi, I wonder too how much parents aspirations change for their children over time.

Hoping for Babi to know choice and Jesus, as well as how to love others and give a lot and really smile. I need to be the best kind of role model. I want to teach Babi how to read and swim and ride a bike because I’m so lucky to have learnt all three. I dream that Babi will have a passion for learning through book and text whilst equally exploring the within and surrounding worlds of other people. We’ll do all we can to provide a safe place where Babi will know happiness, will be encouraged to carry self confidence and will be driven to take on any challenge. I hope that life will contain much more for Babi than possessing the material or the outward perception of a hollow success. I need to ensure as a mother that I do not allow my sight to become blinded or blinkered, but that the scales fall off and that my vision remains clear. You’re still so young and tiny but you make our hearts swell with love and hope for you, mostly just keep amazing us little person x

I’ve recently made a new friend on the street and my nana lent me a street cat named bob, literally read it in a couple of days, such an inspiring can’t put down story!

I’ve recently made a new friend on the street and my nana lent me a street cat named bob, literally read it in a couple of days, such an inspiring can’t put down story!

Ultrasound

There’s no feeling like an unexpected moment and where the sensation is a force of incredible power, those occasions are very few. I believe in the creator and I believe life is formed in secret and I appreciate that science charges forth unveiling the what, where, why and how’s of the created out of love of the work of the creator. Though I struggle when requested to be the object under the microscope, where it’s expected I place my child under the stream of science. Do we really expect our firstborns to be the clinical trial so we know better for the (if possible) next? Motherhood is sacred, our bodies contain a delicate strength, science still doesn’t understand why life doesn’t always form, why babies don’t always make it through a pregnancy, science’s ignorance repeatedly used as a springboard for instiling fear. Pressure from the midwife who knows best, entering hospital out of unease, our very selves invaded and a lack of decision, back bone and trust in God equals an intrusion that can’t be undone but at least, at least, despite meeting our child earlier than should ever have been, we know that for a moment in history we had a super cool kid and we really had no idea whether to laugh or cry.

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Favourite film!

Favourite film!

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hypophrenia21:

True story.



This, except for the wanting food, no thanks, yeukh! So, so, so fed up of being a pukey exhausted wreck on the bathroom floor, trying to focus on the positive side, this is an absolute wonder miracle, we’re actually going have our own baban to give all our love to this summer. Yea we did it, we made a new life!

hypophrenia21:

True story.

This, except for the wanting food, no thanks, yeukh! So, so, so fed up of being a pukey exhausted wreck on the bathroom floor, trying to focus on the positive side, this is an absolute wonder miracle, we’re actually going have our own baban to give all our love to this summer. Yea we did it, we made a new life!
Solar by Ian McEwan, hated the book but still felt compelled to read the whole thing. Sometimes you should stop reading and go pick up another book, lesson learned.

Solar by Ian McEwan, hated the book but still felt compelled to read the whole thing. Sometimes you should stop reading and go pick up another book, lesson learned.